Today, I jog/walked 17 miles in the morning and walked 4 miles in the afternoon.
For the week, I jog/walked 112 miles and walked 19
For the ultra-retreat so far, 14 days: 243 miles
It is for self transcendence. I realize it is nonsense to spend time doing miles for no apparent reason; but that is part of the reason (allowing nonsense to rule my life). I am letting go of my mind's limits while I do miles. I don’t need to be socially acceptable right now, so I let the insanity surface and then let it go. When I was in college, my nick name was Spock. Now, I am letting the wild side out. Being free is the one thing I can afford right now. I think about my life. I think about society. I think about spirituality. All this thinking is a process of integration. As I walk along, some part of my brain sorts the pieces, leaves some in the dust, puts some together. I think about why I eagerly run some races and scoff at others. That is a microcosm of my life. To do these miles in solitude helps me hear the quieter voices.
All of my life, I have been in control. Now, I am looking for a job, but that is the only practical thing I am doing. Otherwise, it is sheer contemplation.