Sunday, July 5, 2009

Unemployed Contemplative - 1

I have been unemployed for 3 weeks. At first, I was on an ultrarunning retreat. I ended that because I need to taper for a race. Also, I feel the need to spend more time in silent meditation and writing. I have turned my will and my life over to God. I totally believe that God has a "next place" for me to go, but I don't know where it is yet.

In the mean time, I think it is very important to stay spiritually focused. I have time to be as spiritual as I want to be. I have time to study and meditate and write; so go for it.

My mantra for today is: This is my holy instant of release; thru light and joy and majesty and peace.

This mantra brings me into the present. If I let go right now of my ego's plans and designs, and let the Holy Spirit decide for me, then I am free.

This morning I read in the Course in Miracles Text, "When a mind has only light, if knows only light. Its own radiance shines around it, and extends out into the darkness of other minds, transforming them into majesty...Recognizing the Majesty of God as your brother is to accept your own inheritance."

I am able to keep light in my mind. I am able to see the Majesty of God in other people. It is again a matter of willingness and discipline. Do I want to see God or do I want to see someone who is out to hurt me and cheat me? Do I want only light in my mind or do I want anger and fear? If I want to see God and have the light, then I make this choice. I still need to ask the Holy Spirit for power to carry out the decision. I still need to watch my mind and see what ego thoughts I have to turn over to the Holy Spirit. It is work.

My inheritance is heaven. My inheritance is everything. My inheritance is Love. Do I want this? Am I willing? How hard will I try to live in the new order of things?

This sort of spiritual thinking is keeping me from going crazy as an unemployed non-financially independent person. I have turned my will and my life over to the care of God. I have offered myself to Him to do with me and build with me as He will. God is doing for me what I can't do for myself. To have placed my life in His hands is to soothing to my soul. It truly is happiness and peace for me.

I ran 10 miles this morning. I will go for a walk this afternoon. I will also spend an hour or two in silent meditation. I love silent meditation. I love being able to be in communication without asking for anything.


Anonymous said...

This is so awesome. Such wonderful words to bring encouragement to all. Holy Spirit had me to quit my job Dec. '08. Everyone thought I was nuts with the "natural" economy like it is, but God's is different. In April I started helping an 84 & 87 year old couple. It has been such a blessing. God has met each need and want I've had. Most of the time without even asking for it. My family now sees it was God and this is what I'm to be doing for now. As God has done for me He will do for you. Just spend your days as you are and Holy Spirit will guide you in all.
Blessings to you,
Kim (Butterfly 2222)

Jan said...

Hi Laura,

Just back from a month in MN with God. Checked in & discovered you are an unemployed contempletive. I know we are on different paths but I still think of you often and wish you God's richest blessings. The Boston Marathon! WOW!
Love ya', Jan