On Thursday, I got in 3 hours of workout plus strength.
On Friday, I got the private marathon done plus strength.
On Saturday, I did the half marathon plus elliptical plus strength.
Now it is Sunday. I'm headed to the park for a long walk, plus additional cross training this evening.
Pretty decent 4 days of workout; a multi-day. Just for me. Part of the anti-dopamine project. Downward Mobility in the material world. Drinking the dregs of my personal energy.
But down in my guts, the one thing I always wanted was the spiritual connection. From the start, I observed strange religious behavior and I believed that those people knew God, or Jesus. I tried everything to achieve the reality.
I never made it.
Now that I am studying neuro philosophy/science (brain books), I can't claim that beliefs are based on anything other than warped survival instinct.
But study of A Course in Miracles does help me deal with my fear and have happy days. So do endorphins. But I don't know more than that.
I hope some day I have the spiritual connection. It is the hope and dream of a lifetime; which is slowly and depressingly eroding.
I think I'll go buy something.
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