This morning, I intentionally slept late. After getting up and settling into my morning spiritual study, I realized I had been criticizing a person with my thoughts, not even really aware of it. And so I prayed. A Course in Miracles discusses our lack of discipline when it comes to our thoughts; we'll allow most thought attacks to go on and on. I realized that humans pretty much hate each other. I wish I wasn't like this.
In conjunction with my Merton study, I wondered again what a mystic is. I wrote down my thoughts:
- To see things differently
- By living apart from the main stream.
- To never leave the spiritual foundation.
And then I wrote down some things I believe:
- Either all things are evidence of God: "Who then made all this?"
- Or none: the world I see is my illusion.
- I can't believe God made evil.
- I believe there is a "worthy" part of my being.
And then revelation hit me: Worthy is the Lamb that was slain. The Lamb is Self, the inherent worthy part of every human and all things, the Son of God. And all the story of Jesus came clear as a crucifixion of Self and a resurrection of Self. Self never goes away and ego never ceases to attack and crucify Self.
So I added one more to my definition of a mystic:
- To worship Self, the Lamb, transcend to Self, join the One God.
Now it is 9 am and incredibly hot outside. I plan to fill the hydropak and go walk laps in Brummerhop Park. I think it is possible for a human to walk around in this heat. Maybe about noon, I'll come in and do cross training. Or whatever. It doesn't matter. Worthy is the Lamb that was slain.
Invest all your thoughts in The Lamb, and nothing else.