Don't lurk at the foot of the cross.
I completely believe that all of us should move on to: the sunlight of the spirit, or heaven or whatever you want to call the resurrection world.
If you practice Lent, practice the idea of being alone with God and having loving conversation.
If you lurk at the foot of the cross, you'll never realize you are not guilty. If you want the sunlight of the Spirit, step into it right now. It is yours. No suffering needed. Accept it.
After all, you get what you project. If it is light, then that is what you get.