As I've mentioned before, I am reading Plotinus' Enneads. In 2.9.9, he mentions "...the way of the Sage..." "...the Sage intent upon the sublimest, upon the realm above..." There are seven Enneads and this reference to Sage appears less than one quarter of the way in the book. But that is all that is said in this location and seems the first reference to the way of the Sage in the Enneads so far.
In my life I have chased: divine union, enlightenment, God, He, and etc. You name it as it seems to go by various names.
Is the Sage wise? Does the Sage win the much sought after spiritual boon?
Maybe the Buddhist, one who chops wood and carries water, is the highest being.
Who is Heidegger's Dasein? How do I become aware of That? Unfallen? (A Heidegger term now, not a Biblical term).
I work for a living. Every weekend is a chance to be alone more fully. I get 3 days every other weekend. It is during these times that I turn my attention inward. Seeking. Listening. Even running or lifting weights.
For this I call myself a monk. A monos. One alone.
To be alone in thought is not a dopamine reward experience. So I never feel holy or enlightened. It is at best a battle with thought demons in the modern desert (a quiet suburb).
Whats going on in my mind, where my inner eyes gaze, defines whether I am a monk, or merely anti-social. A barrage of ego criticisms battering me. Waves of silence washing me. Both at once as I merely sit.
It is not a self improvement program. If you got nothing, you probably figured it out.