Not a cloud in the sky. Temps near 90. 50% humidity. I carried my Nathan hydro-pak. My house is with a quarter of a mile of this place, but I always figure that if I go home, I'll stay there where its cool. So I don't go home. I carry the water.
I spent time thinking about my Colorado running vacation. I spent time thinking about the 3,100 mile race. I spent time thinking about my screwed up heel and newest goner toe nail. I spent time praying and meditating. Really, after 3 hours in the heat, the final hour belongs to the Holy Spirit.
I think self transcendence occurs when nothing matters any more. It means your ego has quit and you are experiencing"just" your simple consciousness. Simple consciousness is a term I just made up this instant. It means the simple self who has no agenda and just keeps going forward. It has no baggage, no attachment to the past or the future. It is at peace.
It does not mean anything that I am driven to workout 20 hours a week or run 50+. I do it. I go in races. But it doesn't mean anything. It is just something to do. In some way, it is an expression of my simple self. In other ways, it is an expression of ego.
47 laps around a park is useless but also simple. There is nothing challenging about the course (other than its hot in Texas). Nothing to brag about (I didn't even see a snake today). All it is is running. It is not really training; just running.
I live in the armpit of Houston. I run in this micro park because it is dirt and has trees and is easy to get to. BFD. Right?
Actually, no ones life matters. All ways of life are ultimately meaningless. So I might as well run as many miles as my body will let me.
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