...burdens or impediments. For some, austerity is a painful deprivation. For me, it is the letting go of complexity and encumbrances in order to live in the simple light of my soul.
Most of my encumbrances are in my mind. They can be called unrecognized beliefs, and the ego's desire for specialness. Specialness causes me to carry out a war in my mind against all others. This war consists of attack thoughts whose purpose is to see me as better than everyone else and promote others worseness. I think I need to do this for my safety because I don't recognize my true position in the real world.
The world I see is a world of encumbrances. The real world is just the light and peace of God; silent and benignly peaceful. My ego would never want this; so it devised another world where it could be special and reign over peace.
What an annoying pain I have made for my self by choosing the ego's world over the real world. My shadow is unrecognized beliefs; which control my life and cause me to seek specialness.
I can choose again.
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Friday, June 24, 2011
Austerity
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Of course I am totally aware of how frowned on austerity is. I've been told how it is wrong to be hard on yourself. I've been told how the austere life doesn't mean anything. I've wondered myself if the desire is not an ego driven attempt to think I am more holy than everyone else.
But I am drawn to less. I can feel it deep in my guts. I don't want all the fanciness or excess or facade. I am making my stand. What I am getting at is the deep feeling in my guts: a need for the imperishable substance of my soul. Cookies and cake in the material world will not satisfy.
My weekly rolling mileage total is at 70.4 miles. Yesterday, I did something new: I ran around trees. That is, I found 5 trees in the parking lot next door which are fairly close together and in uneven grass. To run figure 8 loops around them is an exercise for the ankles and a little bit for muscles not directly on the front of my legs.
Here is a picture of me finishing my last race.
Of course I am totally aware of how frowned on austerity is. I've been told how it is wrong to be hard on yourself. I've been told how the austere life doesn't mean anything. I've wondered myself if the desire is not an ego driven attempt to think I am more holy than everyone else.
But I am drawn to less. I can feel it deep in my guts. I don't want all the fanciness or excess or facade. I am making my stand. What I am getting at is the deep feeling in my guts: a need for the imperishable substance of my soul. Cookies and cake in the material world will not satisfy.
My weekly rolling mileage total is at 70.4 miles. Yesterday, I did something new: I ran around trees. That is, I found 5 trees in the parking lot next door which are fairly close together and in uneven grass. To run figure 8 loops around them is an exercise for the ankles and a little bit for muscles not directly on the front of my legs.
Here is a picture of me finishing my last race.
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